What outright fucking sucks?

  1. That moment when your stomach drops because you just realized you REALLY fucked up and there’s nothing you can do but deal with the shitty consequences.

  2. Being the only one in your group not invited to a thing hosted by the group

  3. Alzheimer’s

  4. Job-hunting

  5. The feeling that I have no future at all.

    Its all I can think about all the time right now :/

  6. Toothache.

  7. Not getting enough sleep

  8. Jobhunting. You spend your whole day trying to think of people who might employ you, doing your best to make yourself sound great through the endless online applications and resumes, and feel worse about yourself with each day that passes without a call back. You start looking at shittier and shittier jobs, wishing you didn’t have to consider them. You don’t have any money to do anything for fun with all of your free time, so you try to dedicate it to pure jobhunting, but the more you try without getting responses/offers/anything, the less you want to keep trying. Nobody owes you a damn thing. You have to continually keep putting yourself “out” there. Show up to a business and walk in looking nice with a freshly-edited resume and cover letter and letters of recommendation and everything, and the nice secretary lady smiles and says “We only accept online applications, thanks,” so you apply online over the course of hours (because you have to upload your resume, but ALSO you have to rewrite it into their website’s fields), congratulate yourself for at least trying, then never hear from them again.

    You can no longer make a good impression by walking in, appearing confident and striking up a conversation with somebody in authority/somebody with the power to give you a job. It’s all online.

    You keep trying. Must appear confident/worthwhile. Nobody’s answering. Feel worse about self. No money to do anything, sit around all day, try to exercise, at least, but damn. Motivation’s drying up. You see people doing jobs for 40k a year that you could do drunk, blindfolded and upside-down, but those jobs are somehow off-limits to you.

    I could go on. This shit is eating my brain, and it’s only been a few weeks.

  9. Losing trust in someone.

  10. Having to be at work with no real work to do while not being allowed to do anything but pretend to work.

  11. Anxiety attacks.

  12. Roommates that don’t do their dishes.

  13. Mosquitos.

  14. Knowing your pet is getting very old and it might be time to say goodbye.

  15. Living paycheck to paycheck for a decade +